Again, it’s been a while. I am ever so thankful to have this space. I love the fact that I have a place I can write and document all of the highs and lows in this journey. Today is a high. When you find your village, support is an amazing feeling. Lots going on, and I’ll have an update among other posts coming up soon.
Today I celebrate friendship and fun, community and comfort. For the first time in YEARS, I feel at home. I would have never guessed I’d be writing this. 2 months ago, our plan was at an entirely different place. We had plans to pack up and travel. We weren’t going to be tied down, and I was 100% okay with that idea. I wanted to be free, to explore and to make friends from all over. Now, as I sit and look at this mess which is my office/kitchen, I can’t think of anywhere I would rather be… for now.
We have been through a lot of rough friendships that typically end with, “we’ll see you next time” only to find out that next time was never in the plans. It is sad when you know your little ones struggle with social settings, and even though everyone understands, you can’t force people to get along. I completely understand. I know we can be a little unpredictable and at times a bit much (okay, that may be an understatement… lol). I know it is hard for other kids to understand my kiddo. That doesn’t make it hurt any less.
We were on the verge of just packing up, and heading out. We had, full plans already in the works. Then, it happened. My babies made friends with the neighbors, and it lasted. It is still touch-and-go right now, and we obviously have the little spats that all friends have, but, it is much more predictable now. I watched my babies go from frustrated and having trouble trusting, to excited, happy (dare I say almost normal) kids.
As I watched the friendships between the kids unfold, so did my friendship with their mom. I have someone to talk to, to do the mom-thing with. It has been glorious!!! It has restored my own happiness and emotional stability. It’s amazing what a village can do. We have spent late nights, catching fireflies, and talking about our goals and dreams. We are planning my girls birthday bash as we speak. It is so refreshing to sit next to or across from someone, and not just type.
Living the special needs life can be rough. It is isolating at times. It is sad, and lonely, and frustrating, and magical and wonderful, and everything wrapped up into one big package. But, having a village is exactly what was needed.